I’ve been on antidepressant twice… the side effect have been horrible. the second time, I have to stopped because the side effect were getting worse. I first tried with Lexapro, then they changed me to Celexa. that one made me feel so bad, I looked like a zombie. Ohh I remember that day. it was a Monday, I went to see Dr. Barden and we talked about the side effect I was feeling with Lexapro. He was really surprised, I was his first patience, who had side effect with Lexapro ( I’m always trying to be different hahaha 
) Lexapro is suppose to be the antidepressant with less side effect, anyways. He then prescribe me Celexa, but he warned me ”Celexa has more side effect than Lexapro…” and he gave me a list of the possible side effect. later that day I went to Walgreen’s and I bought the pills. since after taking the first one, the doctor told me I was going to feel sleepy I decided to take it before I went to bed. (big mistake). I waked up two hours later, with an anxiety attach (I didn’t know it was one!!) my heart was beating so hard I thought it was going to explode. I was so dissy, I was barely able to walk. I wanted to run and throw myself out the window, I had so much energy inside of me, that took me 2 hours to go back to sleep. 
. the following days my eyes were so red I looked like I was ”high”, all my body was hurting. and the panic attach continued through the day…. In short worlds, I WAS FEELING LIKE CRAP!. I wasn’t getting any better… the nurses from college called the doctor and he told me to stop taking the pills.
I kept going to counseling, and by the end of that semester we find out what was wrong with me. everything change after I had that experience with those antidepressant. I began to trust my counselor and I start to REALLY TALK.
took Him (my counselor) 6 month to gain my trust…. I knew the right moment when He started gaining my trust. I was really surprise! because, takes me a long time to trust somebody…. I don’t trust people…. In the whole world I just trust 3 persons. (my parents are not in the list…) I just CAN’T trust people. And after what happened to me a few months ago. it’s going to be harder for me to trust people; specially MEN.
